It may seem as though I’ve dropped off the face of the planet this weekend. I have been fully immersed in yoga and self-awareness! I am three days closer to becoming a better teacher. 🙂 I am going to be writing each month about my experiences in YTT to share my experience with you and reflect for myself.
People told me that YTT would be transformative. And I thought, “Okay, maybe.” But holy mackerel. It’s intense. You go from spending maybe an hour in self-awareness in a yoga class to spending your entire day, for three days straight, focusing inward. Am I remembering to breathe? How’s my alignment? Okay, calm the mind. How am I feeling? Yeah, it’s a lot. Yoga is far from emptying the mind, and teaching? You need to be fully present, because if you’re not, you might miss a cue and someone’s alignment is off because of it.
This self-awareness practice brought up a tremendous emotional release for me. I came home last night and cried for four hours. Why? Bringing all my attention and focus inward forced me to start confronting all the broken pieces I’ve been tucking into myself over the years. Suddenly, those blockages started arising. It was one of the most challenging and confusing days of my life.
That was yesterday. Today, I shared my experience in class and received support from others. Exposing that vulnerability helped me confront my fear and accept that I don’t need to hold it together there.
Aside from being emotionally transformative, I am absolutely loving the content of the course. I have learned so much about anatomy and sound therapy and LISTEN TO THIS: I AM USING MY AP PHYSICS! That’s right- the only class from high school that’s helping me here is the one I struggled with the most. I appreciate it so much more now.
So there’s a little wrap-up of my experience this weekend. I know I didn’t explain much about the course itself or the events, but hopefully this gives you a good taste of what it’s like to actually go through it.
Thanks for reading!