A Year Ago I Was Lost

A Year Ago I Was Lost

Strangest thing occurred to me, just now while I was drying my hair.

Almost a year ago was when I started to freak out because I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my future.

It was about April or May. I remember the beginning of it…I remember spending several hours one night in April crying to my dad because I wanted to major in art history but I was afraid to. I was afraid of what other people might say and think, even though I knew in my heart it was what I wanted.

After that meltdown, I changed my major to interior design. Why? Because I could take art history classes without actually majoring in art history. (Present day me is cackling at 2018 me.) 

By the time graduation came, I was really scared for my future. I had no idea what I wanted or if I even wanted to go to college at all. So, I decided to become a yoga teacher. I decided to spend a lot of money and time on something that was not college. And being that I had always followed the books, and been a good student, this was really unexpected for me.

That breakdown about art history, that gut decision to put off Kent and become a yoga teacher, ended up being some of the most important things to ever happen to me.

I didn’t know it at the time, but my path was all ahead of me. I was always meant to major in art history and become a yoga teacher. But a year ago, it felt like a tremendous leap of faith.

I felt like I was out of my mind. But I’m so glad I went through those months of feeling completely unsure because otherwise, I’d probably be in my second semester of interior design right now. And I wouldn’t be teaching yoga classes as my job, I’d probably be working at the front desk of a martial arts studio.

I have to thank my family and friends for being my support system through all of this. Throughout all my twists and turns, no one was ever critical. Everyone was encouraging.

It has not been an easy year, but I have never been happier in my life. I love my job, I love school, and I love the person I have become.

So if you are in a place where you are confused about everything, just keep riding it out. I know how frustrating it is, but it’s part of life. When I finish college I’m sure I’ll go through this all again, and it will be just as hard; but, that just makes it worth it when you finally figure it all out.

I am so glad to be able to say this: I am happy.



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