I haven’t been publishing like I used to, and I figured I owed you all an explanation.
Like I have mentioned before, I had a busy first year of college. I declared my major, worked a lot of different jobs, and even moved. However, those aren’t reasons why I couldn’t pick up my computer and write. I had plenty of time to crank out a blog post, so the question is, why didn’t I?
While the past year has been eventful, I did not feel inspired to share about my life the way I used to. I started out this blog writing about fashion and makeup. Later, I moved into topics regarding mental health and relationships. Although I still wanted to write about those things, I didn’t know how to say what I was thinking. And I couldn’t go back to writing about makeup (not that there’s anything wrong with that) when I knew what people really needed to read would require me to be vulnerable.
In this past year, I had to face a lot that I didn’t feel prepared to deal with. I struggled with insomnia, depression, and OCD as a result of it. I focused on taking care of myself and going to counseling. Therapy really helped me move forward, but I still didn’t feel ready to share my thoughts and feelings online.
In this experience, I have had to learn how to be genuine while still maintaining a private life. I have had to find the balance between showing my authentic self on the Internet, while still keeping my innermost struggles undisclosed. I like that this blog keeps me accountable, but at the same time, sharing about my experiences brings an emotional toll.
I guess I wanted to keep my emotions to myself for a little while. And I’m glad I did…but I’m hoping that this summer I can start writing more and connecting with you guys.
I cannot begin to explain how wonderful it makes me feel when people say my blogs have helped them. Every time I hear those words, it makes me want to give even more.
This website has brought me endless joy, inspiration, and friendship. Know that I am extremely thankful for that.
Being a creator is different every day- some days, you’re motivated and have one hundred fresh ideas. The next, you’re in full-on Spongebob writing his essay mode.
I realize that I don’t solely have to talk about heavy topics, and I won’t in the future. I still love writing my traditional posts, such as study tips, and all my other ideas that keep me up at night.
Thank you for sticking with me and allowing me the time to figure myself out.
I’ll talk to you all soon.